Sad truth huh.

First of all, happy 9months to us. I dont know whether i should be happy or sad. To me 9months is an accomplishment. Ive never been with someone for that long. At least one. But i dont know to really consider that a relationship or not. Anws, im just thankful that we've reached this far. Thats if u feel the same way baby. Well i really hope so. Ytd was absolutely the worst day of my life knowing all the things that have been kept from me. Do u guys know hows the feeling like? Esp from someone that u love alot. Its a shitty feeling, i swear. N i cant help but to breakdown. Lies after lies. Its like shooting at me simultaneously. I thot it'll stop at one but it doesnt. Oh well. Whats past is past. I wont n cant brood over it anymore. Uat hati saket je. Just didnt thot this will happen to me. To us. I thot everything is fine sweet and right from the start. I guess i shouldnt have put high hopes or think too much about this relationship. In the end, i will gt hurt. I decided to give him a second chance. Not out of pity but because i still love him. I want him to change fr the better not just coz of me but for his family or the people around him. I really hope u'll change. I believe in u.

Baby, if u happen to read this, i hope u really change. It doesnt matter how long it'll take. Even if u have to take another 9 months i dont mind. The most is i'll suffer w all thse shits again. But i just cant bear to leave u yet. Atleast for now. I hope u will take advantage of this chance that ive given u to really reflect on urself and change fr the better. Rmbr, its not only fr me but fr urself n ur family. U dont owe me a living so i wont say its purely for me. Hope u are already starting now. This minute. I wont say i trust u cos i need time too to trust u all over again. But i believe in u. I swear i do. Just know that im not one who will take revenge. But if it really happen then im sorry it happen. I love u soo much baby n i hope u feel the same way.